Now we wait.

6 days until it's baby day!  It is consuming my thoughts (and actions, really).

I had my last appointment yesterday and it's weird to be in kind of a limbo with wondering if we'll make it 6 more days or not.  Baby's heart rate was "very mature," and my contractions have picked up and are taking over my whole belly up by my ribs, and I can't help but reminisce back to these things happening three years ago and then B3 arriving before his C-Section date.

So here we wait, and I am taking it extremely easy and not picking up B3 anymore, which breaks my heart.  I can't help but snuggle him a little bit more.

And buy him Skittles at 10 in the morning.

And let him choose his lunch.

This weekend is an extended holiday one and my doctor isn't on call, so if he comes over the weekend then once again one of my doctor's partners will be doing my C-Section.  It's one of two reasons I want him to cook a little longer, the other being my mom won't be here until Sunday!!

But other than that, get him out!  I am ready.  I am much larger and more uncomfortable I can't help but think there's a 10 pound baby boy in there, tearing my abs apart with my every movement.

  • Work is sorted out, I'm basically done for now
  • Organists are covered for church
  • Hospital bag is packed
  • Bentley instructions are printed
  • Clothes are washed and hung up
  • We're all registered at the hospital
  • The nursery is put together (not decorated, but it'll have to do for now)

So now we just wait.
It's a weird limbo place to be, but super exciting at the same time!!

Another Arizona August (aka Life Lately...)

I have mentioned numerous times that Bentz suddenly became terrified of the bath/pool this spring, and I'm not sure if it was his swimming lesson in not 100 degree water like he was used to, or the new bathtub with big sliding glass doors, but it has been a battle every bath time.

Grandpa wanted to help change that and after searching for some extra fun bath toys at Toys 'R' Us and not really finding much (but we did find this sweet Porsche), grandpa bought a mini pool and we put Bentz toys in it, to "swim."

37.5 Weeks - I'm Ready [to pop]

I just love his little "CHEESE" grin.

My age: 32 for a few more days.  It is my birthday week, but honestly that's the last thing on my mind!

How far along: 37+5 - Baby is allowed to come at any time!  But my mom won't be here until Sunday so it's best if he waits a little bit longer.  haha  If he wants to arrive when B3 did, he'll come ON Sunday.

How big is baby: Watermelon!  Probably getting close to 7 pounds by now.

What have you been up to:  It's the last full week of life/work before our family grows!  I'm finally to a place where I feel semi-ready if he were to show up.  We have one more load of newborn/etc. items to wash today, Ben put all the baby stuff together this weekend and we washed all the seat covers /sanitized them.  I just need to bust out the breast pump and bottles and get those all washed too.

We also all went to get our Tdap booster shots at Sam's Club (Costco was totally weird to us, so my dad called Sam's and they price matched and had enough for all of us too).  Now it's recommended that your immediate family/friends who will be around the baby go get a Tdap shot every three years, and every pregnancy regardless of time frame.  Whooping cough is extremely deadly to a newborn, and unfortunately I know someone who lost their baby to it so we don't mess around.

Exercise/Activity Level:  Some would argue non-existent, but I would argue that it's high at this point.  It takes a lot of energy to move.  lol  Even getting dressed, ...have mercy.  Gotta be burning like 300 calories getting my socks on.  Pass me the Poptarts.

Maternity clothes:  Yes and yes.

Stretch marks:  None yet.  Hoping that having made it this far that I can continue to make it the final days without any showing up.

Belly Button:  Stretched.  Slightly noticeable in tight clothing.

Sleep:  I have had nights where I wake up to flip over multiple times in an hour because of my hip pain.  They are definitely getting looser by the minute.  It's amazing how your body just preps itself for what's to come.

Best Moment of the Week:  Having my dad in town was a lot of fun, Bentz has been pretty dang cute, and the house is also getting so close to not looking like we just moved in.

Worst Moment of the Week:  I am uncomfortable.  10x more so than my first pregnancy.  I told Ben that that one was glamorous in comparison.  :P

Food cravings:  Last night I was dying for some pastrami or pepperoni.  I even Googled it to see if I could just go ahead at this point in pregnancy and eat some, but the nitrates thing scared me back to a no.  Ben will just have to bring me one in the hospital.  :D

Food aversions:  Nothing! Wahoo.

Symptoms:  It seems by the end of the weekend that my swelling goes down.  Probably because I can sit a lot of it because Ben is around to chase the wild boy, and I don't sit at my desk, which I've noticed swells me right up.  By the end of the week my feet/ankles are pretty swollen, even with my compression socks.  One day my knees were even swollen, it was nuts.  I was not a fan.  haha  But our August weather hasn't been so great, it's been similar to June with above average temps and only a few monsoons so far.  July sure was a stormy treat.  The weather I think is making my swelling worse than it would be...  today will be 109?

Also my skin has been super oily the last month and started to break out.  Surprisingly I made it through most of the pregnancy without that.

Thank goodness for this:

Movement:  Yup!  I can feel he is more squished this last week or two.  I get bulges on the right side where his feet push out, and I like to push down on his little bum in the center of my belly, and feel it bounce right back.  So fascinating that there's a little human inside of me.

Gender:  Baby boy B2.

What I’m looking forward to:  Meeting the handsome little guy.  Getting pretty excited!

What I’m nervous about/praying for:  Breastfeeding, what kind of sleep we'll be getting or not getting (we have these dreams/delusions that sleep will go swimmingly the second time around haha), that all goes well!

What I miss:  I miss being able to move easier/faster, not scrutinizing ingredients, running, and lots of caffeine.

Next appointment:  One more at 38 weeks, and then it's baby day!

He has the doctor's appointments routine down.

I am snuggling him a little bit more each day because our one on one time will soon be changing.  Love this little boy!!!

9 days!

Postpartum Weight Loss: A Plan!!

It's kind of pregnancy week on my blog.  Unplanned, but considering that I am so extremely pregnant, it consumes my thoughts basically, oh, 24/7.  Every time I get a contraction, "ohhh is this going to be it??"  lol  

So I've got 13 days left and have been brainstorming the aftermath plans to help motivate me to succeed with my new postpartum bod.  Since I am so left brained and kind of a control freak, I always have to have a plan or two/three/four in place, I find it really helps.

There is a lot of pressure to get your body back after having a baby, wayyy too much pressure, and it is only growing every day thanks to social media (Instagram) or people like Dwight Schrute (to Pam):  Meh. You were at your most attractive when you were 24 with a slight, gradual decline and a steep drop-off when you got pregnant for the first time. Gradual recovery and, uh, well now, obviously, you're at an all-time low.  ;)  The pressure wasn't this bad three years ago when I had B3, I swear, so my goal is to put that pressure aside and just do me.

1-  Eat healthy
I don't track my calories or macros, it works for some, but I did try once and it was so much work and overwhelming.  The goal is to try to eat healthy, basically don't buy the junk food, just keep it a-w-a-y.  Think Paleo (plus a little cheese :D ) with the occasional indulging, probably on the weekends.  Life without sugar is a sad life indeed!  I've learned I can't live on Paleo long term though, it is a shorter term thing for me and I will eventually get back to some oatmeal for breakfast and some energy for running.  Sunbasket offers Paleo meals which has been so nice to have them just show up.

2-  Work out
The key is find something you ENJOY.  I cannot wait to get back to running!  I miss it so much.  I miss being outside when I run, and getting long doses of nature, music, and time alone to think.  I miss the goals.  I miss the pain.  I miss the early mornings (within reason lol) and hot air balloons overhead.  I even miss staying in my sweaty clothes way too long.  I plan to run the day I am cleared to, but only because I miss it SO, so that motivation will hopefully help.  Followed up with strength training in our garage set up, because I don't think I plan to return to the gym right away.  Kids yo.

3-  Be reasonable with a timeline
I will be cleared for fitness mid October which is just in time for the holidays!  :P  Although I plan to jump right into working out, I will let myself indulge in some fall treats for sure, and at 4 months PP (the new year) will be ready to dial in the diet a bit tighter as needed.

4-  The first six weeks don't count
I don't remember being hungry, eating, sleeping, etc., I just remember feeling overwhelmed like oh my freaking nelly.  I imagine the first six weeks are going to be a bit rough again, especially if baby boy has any colic (please no!), and I'm not going to add to it.  Doctors usually clear you for fitness after six weeks, I learned this is because you have a wound in your uterus where the placenta detached, and if you start too soon you risk hemorrhaging.  So even if you were to be the most fit person on planet earth, you still have a gaping to just wait.

5-  Be kind
I remember feeling chubby at two months post partum and feeling like I should be back in shape by then.  At the time it seemed reasonable, but...lolol.  And looking back at pictures I looked totally good!  This time around I'm going to try to be kind to myself and not compare to my pre-baby self, my first round of post partum, or anybody else.

6-  Choose the right clothing
This isn't really weight loss, but it goes along with it!  I don't think I could get my regular jeans up past my knees right now, and I don't really want to know the exact day that I can officially squeeze into them, or when my hips are about back to normal.  What I did the first time was create a "fourth trimester" set of clothing that included leggings, stretchy pants, skirts, and even maternity pants, and I wore them for a long time, even longer than I knew I had to.  Then one day I finally decided it was jeans time, and they fit, and I pretended they had probably fit for a long time.  ;)

7-  To weigh or not to weigh?
I'm not sure about this one.  I don't weigh myself, Ben does, but I don't.  I don't know what I weigh right now and I don't really want to know either.  lol  I just look up when I am weighed each doctor's appointment.  With my first baby I weighed myself afterwards because it was fun to see the weight fall off and because I have a smart scale that graphs everything for me and I'm a total data nerd.  I might weigh myself after the first six weeks, but I'm not sure?  I honestly don't even know what my pre-pregnancy weight was.  So maybe TBD on this one?

I just want to be reasonable because it took 40ish weeks to get there/here and will take some time to get back, despite being so eager to just get back to it.  Same goes with my fitness and running which I know will be so slow to begin with, but every little bit counts towards the bigger goal.

What's in my hospital bag? (C-Section)

I can't even remember anything that I had packed in my hospital bag three years ago, but I do remember being glad that I had it packed ahead of time.  I'm a little behind the ball this time, but most of my bag was packed earlier this month and I put a "TO GRAB" list on the fridge for miscellaneous items that are best grabbed at the final second, like electronics or glasses that I still use daily.

I think for a c section your insurance lets you stay four nights, and I plan to, so it requires some extra stuff.  And I am definitely worried about being away from my boy that long, but he will be in good hands!  

Am I forgetting anything?  I might add a book, although I doubt I will feel like reading.

36.5 Weeks - 2 days to term!

My age:  32, for another week and a half at least

How far along:  36+5 - As of Wednesday, baby boy will no longer be considered pre-term if he were to be born.  I'm so happy to have made it to this point!  I expected to, but you just never know.

How big is baby:  Watermelon!  I swear he's going to be much much bigger than Bentz was.

What have you been up to:  I got a call on Thursday and my dad said he had some random time off and was thinking about a trip to Phoenix!  So Friday he came into town and it's been so much fun, and his longest stay ever.  Bentz is in HEAVEN, this morning they went to the store and bought a container of dinosaurs and he has been loving them.

Exercise/Activity Level:  Not a whole lot to report here for me, although Ben still is running at the crack of dawn.

Maternity clothes:  On repeat, some are too short. 

Stretch marks:  None yet.

Belly Button:  Stretched.  Getting a little weird.

Sleep:  We've had better days.

Best Moment of the Week:  Having my dad in town and doing fun things with him and the fam!  Tomorrow night we're having a Tdap party and all getting our updated vaccinations together at Costco.  ha  Also, our couch was delivered and our house is finally coming together!

Worst Moment of the Week:  The fatigue.  Struggling to function at times.

Food cravings:  Nothing really.

Food aversions:  Nothing!  Wahoo.

Symptoms:  I am just uncomfortable and feeling ready to be done.  Sunday was the first day (in my life?) that I didn't wear heels to church because my feet were already swollen enough that I couldn't get them on.  :P  I played the organ in socks because I couldn't get my organ shoes on!  

Movement:  Yup! 

Gender:  A sweet baby boy B2.

What I’m looking forward to:  Hearing that first cry!  Surreal.  Also some time home just with my family.  I am hoping to be less stressed out this time, and I'm determined not to let breastfeeding woes ruin my life (for that moment at least) and will definitely supplement formula before killing myself over it like I did with Bentz.

What I’m nervous about/praying for:  I do start to worry a bit about the epidural and the whole surgery thing as we get closer, but I think that's normal.  I want everything to go well!

What I miss:  My body, agility, running, energy/energy to get ready, loads of caffeine.

Next appointment:  37 weeks, 38 weeks, and then it's baby day!

A moment of gushing.

Do you ever have days, or parts of days that are just the best??  I had one yesterday afternoon with our little B3 and it was probably one I'll remember forever, especially considering we're counting down the days until our family grows.

We had a doctor's appointment for me, and he was adorably good and so friendly to everyone around, it just made my heart burst as he walked around with his Lightning McQueen lunchbox full of dinosaurs, showing everyone who would look.  He gets a sucker when I check out and he sat quietly in a chair and ate it while I paid.  Then we had to run a few errands, and he continued to be sweet the whole time, never throwing any tantrums or attitude.  He was so patient with me looking at baby clothes when he just wanted to get to the toys at Babies R Us (I had totttally forgotten they had toys there doh).  We sang the song BINGO at least 30 times while perusing the aisles of Wal-Mart and waiting in their freaking awful line.  He was just so sweet and made my heart melt and I want to remember it forever.

He has this idea that the sun is too bright when he doesn't have his sunglasses on, so he wants us to carry him so he can bury his eyes into our neck and avoid the brightness.  It almost feels like carrying a sleeping child, and I love it, despite being hugely pregnant and pushing a cart in 100 degrees.

Such a sweet boy!  I know he will be a great big brother despite lately saying, "no baby brother!"  Just you wait little man, you will love Mr. Dash too.

House Update - Lots to do but it's FUN.

We have a huge project list that we've been tackling, which has been fun!!  We need to always have a project list because Ben loves them and he is always working on something, or wanting to be, so luckily our list has been long as we tweak the style of our home.

Some projects already attacked:

  • Remake medal hanger - We have a lot of medals and plan on only getting more, so Ben made a 7' hanger for my office wall.

  • First layer of paint on dining curtains - painted with Grizzle Gray, the color from our master.  If we can get it streak free, it'll be a success!

  • Seal house from scorpions - bug guys only found four possible minor entry locations, so we really should be golden.  Pray.
  • New baseboards - done prior to paint

Some of the remaining projects, to name a few:

  • DIY horizontal mirrors X 3
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  • Master bedroom barn door - from master to the master bath, it doesn't have any sort of door which is strange

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  • Paint kitchen cabinets - this could be hired out or a huge project for not right now, but we want to go white, with a dark island, and light granite w/mitered side panels
  • Paint railings - until we replace them with a more modern white style
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  • Nursery accent shiplap wall - green stain
  • B3's accent shiplap wall - blue stain
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  • Refinish our bedroom dressers - they are really old and have been through a lot, so it could be a fun experiment to try a color out on them.  I'm really into blues/purples lately.
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  • Do a family canvas painting - splatter?  finger?  We have big walls now, lots of room.
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  • Dye large curtains - which hasn't gone so well yet, not sure it will.  Once upon a time I dyed my wedding gloves and crinoline hot pink, but unlike the curtains, that material soaked up the dye.

  • Paint front of C's desk - the desk is now rotated so that the front part is the part that used to be flush to the wall, thus it only has KILLZ on it (bought from somebody who smoked so Ben KILLZed it like crazy, which worked!).  It needs a fresh black finish.
  • Refinish the hutch - inherited from my grandparents who have passed, and I go back and forth between wanting to leave it as is for that sake, or keep updating it with the times.  I think it'd be fun to refinish it and take it with us wherever we go!
  • Paint curtains - this is a thing, we found out, might as well try it before replacing them.
  • Paint curtain rods

Plus there are about 5 million other little projects that have happened, including trying to put rooms together (NURSERY!!!) and replacing some fixtures/etc.

Old versus new fans:

There was also a fan over the dining area (still taped up from painting), so we put a Sputnik chandelier there.  "Bright enough to do brain surgery under."

Some fun new artwork that will go up in the master today.  This one is Las Vegas, where we met:

Hopefully the house will come together the next few weeks and I can show a finished-ish look.  It has been a lot of fun though, I have never gone out and bought new furniture before, so yeah, SO MUCH FUN.  And Ben told me yesterday that his favorite part of the whole house thus far, is the master bedroom focal wall (where the art above is going).

These are all a bunch of random phone pics, but hopefully soon I'll post some finished ones.  Because I know you're all dying to see.

My poor family is dying for me to stop showing them.  :P